Doctor visit

My doctor appointment yesterday morning was very uneventful. Seriously. There is no progress with my cervix, none whatsoever. Not even a dimple according to my OB. She did say that if I am showing some progression by my visit next week we can go ahead and induce which would be awesome. Pretty much by this time next week we could possibly be holding our little daughter! She did say that the only way to really help with bringing on labour is to walk. Gravity is our best friend right now so no more swimming, it just makes her more buoyant. She definitely put her foot down on the castor oil, she said it would probably just give me diarrhea. She had never heard of the pineapple trick or the raspberry tea.

O.M.G.

20 days left. 20. Two. Oh. O.M.G. This is surreal, I am actually going to be someone's mother in less than 3 weeks. No running away now! Whew. I am having some unproductive contractions. Painful but not terribly bad and nothing consistant. My doctor said that I am closed so no dilation yet but I am sending happy opening thoughts down to my cervix. Fingers crossed! We are as ready for this baby as we can be. I am filled with so many different emotions right now, fear, anticipation, anxiety, excitement. Any ideas on how to jump start labour? Besides castor oil? I realize that women have probably been asking that questions since the dawn of time. . . thanks so much for all of the lovely comments about The Belly. I sure don't feel beautiful right now and it's nice to hear it every now and then!

36 weeks 3 days

It seems like the last few weeks of pregnancy last forever. Seriously. I have been having contractions (last night they were about 6 minutes apart!) but they always end up going nowhere and no progression. We are just so excited to meet this little girl! I can't hardly wait to see the tiny little feet that are constantly kicking me! This is our latest belly shot, not the best you'll have to forgive us they batteries on the camera were dying. Believe it or not I've only gained about 8 pounds throughout this whole pregnancy so I'm not too bad off, I just look enormous.

I have a new love

I dyed fabric today. I am totally in love. I want to do this every day! As soon as I have some pics I will post them. I am having a small problem though. I am trying this applique project but it is very hard to find cute fabric to use. I really really really want some Hea.ther Ro.ss fabric and I'm having a really tough time finding any locally. I resent having to pay shipping for anything that I can find locally so I am going to keep searching. Besides the fact that I only need scraps really and I don't want to buy an entire yard or even a half yard if I don't need it. I have enough of a yarn stash I don't need to start a fabric stash too! If anyone knows any Phoenix area fabric stores that might carry what I need let me know! Or if anyone has any of this fabric they would be willing to sell. . . that would make me a very happy pregnant lady! :)

Well this is unexpected

I was born with a heart issue. Not a minor one but actually a fairly major one. Five weeks after my birth I was in the University hospital on medications galore and 24 hour watch. Now here's the odd thing, when I was five months old they did a routine recheck EKG. It was completely normal. No more heart issue. Weird huh? Now I didn't really think that much about it all these years. I have no symptoms, no lasting effects, no medications, no restrictions on my life. On a whim i decided to look it up the other day to see if there could be any effect on this little baby. And as it turns out this could be a big fucking deal. And there's nothing that we can do about it but wait and see. We just need to observe and watch and be careful and there's absolutely nothing preventative at all that we can do. I hate that. I feel completely helpless. We are signing up for baby cpr and have been advised by our doctor that we need to keep her close at all times which means most likely we will be co-sleeping. I am kind of at a loss right now. We will obviously deal with this as it comes but I want to be able to do more, I want answers and there just isn't any right now. I feel horrible that I could have passed this on to my child. If she has this issue it is completely my fault.



ETA: Just a little more explanation, this wouldn't be a structural defect it would be a mechanical one. More like an electrical one really. The only way to know if she had it would be an abnormal EKG which she won't necessarily have until she has an issue if this is going to be an issue at all. Very tricky. I think there is some kind of genetic testing available but that's not something we can do until she's born and I think it's still kinda experimental. Like 'there may be a problem if this is abnormal but there may not be a problem at all.' It's all so confusing.

Top Ten Most Annoying Comments

In no particular order:

1. Are you excited? (Nope. Not at all. Miracle of life. . .eh)
2. You are huge! (Seriously?)
3. Are you ready? (Usually said smugly as someone else's child throws a fit in a store. Why no actually, changed my mind. Can we send it back?)
4. Getting hot huh? (Well it is summer in Phoenix I think everyone's hot.)
5. Where's the baby? Haven't you had it yet? (This one confuses me. I'm obviously still pregnant, where do you think she is? Like I hid her or something?)
6. I'm not trying to scare you but. . . (followed by some horrific account of birthing by someone they know, are related to, heard of, etc.)
7. Sleep now while you still can! (Oh thanks, I had been avoiding sleep cause I didn't think I needed it anymore.)
8. Better get used to it! (As some child screams it's head off in the lobby. As if every child acts like this all the time.)
9. How are you feeling? (Like crap really but what they want to hear is fine so that's what I say.)
10. I hope you are getting rid of your cats. (Actually no. Because they don't really lay on babies faces. Seriously.)

I am not sure if it's just so annoying because I'm pregnant or what but really I wish people would just shut up. I just don't want to hear it anymore. Yes people I am excited and yes I'm ready to have this baby! I don't want to hear your horror stories or your advice that I didn't ask for. Yes I'm nervous about giving birth, who wouldn't be? Ugh, I know I sound ungrateful but geez, some comments should just not be verbalized. Ever.

Ho Hum

Nothing much going on here. I am 33 weeks pregnant. And quite uncomfortable. My back hurts, my feet are swollen (times 3), I apparently snore like a lumberjack, and I am hot hot hot all the time. Of course it is Phoenix in the summer but still. She moves around a lot and that is amusing but when she gets her little feet wedged up in my ribs it's not cool. We are very busy doing kinda of a spring cleaning and getting all of the clutter out of the house. I love that, I am not a clutterbug by any means but M really is and it drives me nuts! My mom has a pool which has really been a lifesaver these days. I love just lying there floating and feeling, at least for a little bit, weightless. I have only gained 7 pounds so far so I really have nothing to complain about and no stretch marks! Yay! I hope that the actual birth goes as smoothly as this pregnancy has. We are not sure if we are going to do this again though. Not that being pregnant has been hard or anything we just don't know if we want to parent more than one kid. Of course there's no way to make that decision now. But if we do decide that we are done I am considering looking into gestational surrogacy. I don't feel that egg donation is really right for me but gestational surrogacy seems like something that I can do no problem. Again as long as the birth goes off without a hitch. Who knows though we'll have to see what happens. I'm not even sure how that would work really.